A Comfort in the Night

Im so grateful for the people's lives that I have been able to bless. A lady the other day at the gas station asked for some money so she could get to her job in salt lake. I was so happy to be able to spare a little change for this woman. How amazing I felt inside. It was such a wonderful feeling.

Today more than ever though I was a comforter in the night. Around 11:57 I called the love of my life to wish her a goodnight. We both seemed tired but, I just could sense something was bugging her. After we hung up I asked her if there was anything that I could do for her. After about 3 minutes I called her back. She answered and to my surprise something had been bugging her. I was so grateful for the chance I had to make
Her happy and feel so loved. We talked for a while about struggles and pains. I never ever want Brittany to not feel loved or afraid. Someone once told me a goal written down is merely a wish. I would like to make my own statement like this. A promise not written down is merely a let down.

Brittany, this is my promise to you: I will love you and put you first in my life beyond anyone else. I will love you forever and for all of eternity. I'm never letting go.you make me the happiest woman alive. And so my promise is to make you the happiest woman alive. I love you baby.

Sometimes the Right Decisions are the Hardest

I've fallen in love. I'm head over heels for Brittany Elaine Kerr. She makes me so happy, and treats me so well. She makes me work to the best of my abilities. I love every moment that we spend together and I hope that she cherishes that.

On June 25, I made the biggest decision in my life, ever! And it was worth every moment in my life!

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I proposed to this BEAUTIFUL and GORGEOUS and DAZZLING girl. She makes my life so perfect and wonderful. 

On Saturday, I woke this beautiful princess up out of bed and wished her a happy birthday. We went to the temple and walked around for a little bit... Okay it was a while. 

 We walked around the temple and talked of beautiful and futuristic things. As we came around to the East Side of the temple, I sat down on the stone bench and Brittany sat next to me. While there I gazed into this BEAUTIFUL young woman and just thought. This was the girl I wanted to be with for eternity. I wanted to spend every moment with. I wanted to fight any battle with, and raise a family with. We started talking about how waiting for me on a mission would not be easy, and our love for each other. Just then, at that very moment, I fell to one knee, and pulled out a ring, and took Brittany's hands in mine and told her:

Brittany I want to make the next two years as easy as possible for you.

Brittany in two years will you marry me in this very temple, in the house of our God.

I never felt more in love than I did the moment Brittany shed that first tear, placed her hands around my head and looked deeply into my eyes and said yes. The feelings that were expressed that day were so beautiful and gorgeous. I will never forget those eyes or that beautiful face. It's engraved into my very soul. 

Brittany Elaine Kerr, I want to spend eternity with you.

I Love You

Keys to Success

A very humble man in my ward shared with me the keys to success. Bro. Weller is a great man. He teaches me so much. I'm very excited to serve my mission and to serve the people in the West Indies! The
Church is True!

1.       Read the scriptures every morning and night.  DON’T EVER MISS FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

2.       Pray with all of your heart for help to accomplish your goals.

3.       Study every day.  Consistency is more important than quantity.  Consistency is paramount.

It's the simplest formula to find your way to true happiness. I tend to follow it for the rest of my life, and beyond!

A Wonderful Weekend.... Again

These two crazy people are in love. So much and we love every moment of it. Brittany and I spent the weekend together at my house and whoa! Doesn't she looking gorgeous.

This weekend Brittany came over on Friday night and met at Cold Stone. We drove to my house and got ready for the night, then went with Brittany (my sister) and Regan, and ate at Texas Road House. The food was amazing there, but the people that were there made it such a memorable experience. We went home after and went on a jog then watched I am number 4. Brittany Kerr has this tendency to distract me from movies a lot though. It's alright by me though. I know you just were thinking, Hey!, when I wrote that Brittany. We talked about our lives and just the funniest things you can imagine. We got ready for bed and Brittany and I just laughed and I tucked her in and she was safe and sound. 

The next morning we woke up and went to Cold Stone, and I decorated a few cakes. We went home and my mom took a nap and Brittany and I worked on some stuff and talked about the night. It was fun sitting on my bed with our laptops just being together talking and laughing and other things. After my mom woke up she gave Brittany a make over! It was beyond gorgeous. I couldn't believe it. It was also Brittany's first time ever getting highlights. She looked dang good to. We went on a date and went and ate at Cafe Rio and watched the fireworks in Provo. After we came home and ate chocolates out on my tramp til two in the morning. We love being together, making each other happy, and laughing at the funniest random things. After we had fallen asleep and woken up countless times we decided to go to bed in each of our own separate beds. I tucked Brittany in after a deadly toothbrush fight in our upstairs bathroom. The next morning I woke Brittany up and we just had a lot of smiles and love towards each other. ;) We went to church, and then drove around after. It was so much fun. We spent the rest of our time together that Sunday, by the temple and at a very lovely place! I'm in love with this girl. It's ridiculous!

Nemo, Don't Touch the Butt...

Ah what I great laugh I had tonight. Brittany told me how it was awesome that I worked my butt off and that it really was a turn on, but the funniest part is I still do have a butt. Haha! I gotta love her. She makes me laugh like crazy. I am so excited everyday, even just to say one word to Brittany. The other day I was able to talk to Brittany, after waking her up. I'm exhausted right now after working all night. I want to go to Idaho to see the love of my life. I have to hurry and do as much as I can tomorrow so I am going to work my tail off. I'm off to bed! Goodnight everybody!

Your Welcome

I'm glad I sent you that poem Brittany. Hehe, I sent the love of my life a beautiful poem today and it made me giggle. Tonight with a few friends we had smores at my house. I can't wait for the wonderful evening when Brittany and I can sit next to the heat of the fire, and stare into each others eyes, and see how wonderful the other is. Thanks for holding on Brittany. I love you.

Preparation

I love this picture, and this woman. Oh so, so much. It's exciting the things that we are able to do. I'm preparing for my future day by day. It's exciting. I'm exhausted and tired today, but it's so worth it. I'm preparing for the future. 

What a wonderful person this woman is. If she could only understand how much I love her. The things that I could do for her, are amazing. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing that is. It's so cool to think about the future ahead. What a wonderful blessing to have this beautiful daughter of God in my life. I'm doing this all for her, because I know deep down it's all worth it. I can't begin to describe my love for her. 

Going the Extra Mile

Okay, so you can see now that I am posting this blog and it is now 1:00 in the morning! Crazy I know! I decider to go the extra mile after work today and I went without my moms permission and for groceries for the house. I hope I got everything that I was supposed to. That would stink really bad. I talked to Brittany today after work and we had a wonderful conversation and then after I had to go. We talked about the future and the things that we have in store for each other. It's so nice to have someone that truly makes me feel like my better half. Our relationship is so wonderful and blessed, and makes me so happy inside. I'm happy. I worked all day today and I work all day until 5:00 then 7:00 to 11:00 tomorrow night. It's so nice knowing that I an working for the future, for the love of my life.

Work

I have to confess that I have become addicted to work just like my mom. I want to do it now so that I don't have to do it later. I want to be able to save around 8000 before my mission and put it into savings. Today I work from 8 until 11:00 at night. I am so excited. My mom doesn't know my plans for the future and I love it because it's so nice to work as much as I can before she knows what I am doing. I just made 315 dollars this last paycheck. That's really crazy to think about. I work so much and it's a blast. I'm so excited for the future! I can't even explain, how much I want to work now so that I will be prepared when I get back from my mission. There's a special someone out there and they know who they are. I'm doing all of this for them. Love life especially, at times like things.

Weekends

Weekends are the most amazing thing ever. Especially when you can spend time with the ones you love over the weekend. Brittany came down this weekend and we had a full day Saturday. For the first time we went to the temple together. We went to the Provo temple and we now have nicknamed it the Birthday Cake temple. This temple will forever hold a memory and lasting moment in my mind. I can't describe the feelings that were felt there.

We went golfing and Brittany did amazing. She was a little afraid at first but, being the fast learner she is, she learned to hit that ball over thirty feet! Wait to go Brittany.

We went to Fox Hollow and it was a perfect and sunny day golfing with one of my best friends.

Look at how beautiful she is!

Before golfing I painted Brittanys nails. We actually took it all off because it didn't look to good :)

I love spending time with my best friend. It's so important the time that we spend together and every moment that I see her. We can talk, laugh, and be our true selves around each other and I love it. We communicate so much and things just seem to flow and work out so well. What an incredible feeling to have such an amazing and wonderful friend in my life.

Simplicity

I love how simple the love that Brittany and I have. It's so beautiful. I'm really hoping this weekend that I take a lot of pictures because I want to have some pictures of Brittany and I having a blast. I'm so excited because I planned golfing, movies, dinner, lunch, and relaxation time. Wink, wink. Haha but the hardest part is getting these plans all together. I hope that they all come through. If my parents don't interrupt then this will be a perfect day. I'm super excited to see Brittany this weekend. It will be super fun.

Oh and to add on top of today, I got free movie tickets, two pairs of brand new shoes, just for beating Brenton at ping pong. How nice of my brother. He just kept playing and betting stuff and I didn't lose so now he owes me all this stuff. I think I see why the church says we shouldn't gamble.

I'm beginning really hard to work on my savings. I'm going to tell Brittany about my plan this weekend. Basically, every dime and every penny I see that day before 6:00 I go and take it to the bank and deposit it. A penny on the street or a dime on the floor. Anything. I opened up a new savings account just to start from today and see how much I can put into it before my mission. My first plan was to put 10,000 dollars into it. That wasn't a realistic goal, but I believe I can get it to 6000-7000 before my missions and with interest on it by the end of 2013 I should have around 10,000. I'm super excited for the future. I'm preparing Brittany. I love you so much. Sleep well tonight.

Pictures

Here is my post to keep you updated on the life of these two amazing lovers.

I love this girl so very much, I've been on Skype with her all night, and it's been a blast. I'm so excited because she is coming this weekend. 

Two Lovely People

Brittany and I are having the most perfect relationship that anyone could ask for. I'm crazy about her and would do anything for her. It's 12:00 at night and I just played two hours of basketball, and I already feel like a husband to her. She said she loves reading my blog everyday when I post something so that is what I am going to try to do. Brittany, your love for me is shown in everything you do.

This past weekend was so memorable to. Brittany had to go out of her comfort zone a little but in the end she truly loved it. I wanted Brittany to feel my everlasting love for her. On Sunday, this love I showed was so wonderful. I massaged the beautiful, and gorgeous feet of my love Brittany. She was really uncomfortable at first with it, but I gave her some time, and in the end I know she loved it. It was nice to know that I could come up to Idaho, after Brittany walked around all week, going to classes and whatever else, and being able to make her feel better. She said the comment to me, you're spoiling me, and yes that's exactly what I mean to do. I want to make this girl feel like a princess everyday of her life. She deserve's it and I love her that much that I would do anything for her.

On top of massaging her feet I also tweezed her eyebrows. That last sentence sounded kind of weird. Oh well! I'm so grateful for my mom, who truly has taught me so much about life and my father who gives me such a great example to treat women. It truly helps me in my daily life, and the things I do for others. I want Brittany, to know that I will always give my all to her. My heart is hers. I'm in love with this girl.

So today, before I went to play basketball, I was long boarding over to the church and this little old lady was putting mulch on her driveway from a trailer that was full. It was right when I saw her that I knew what I was suppose to do. I went over to the church and grabbed Regan before we went and played basketball, and we helped her out. It took about 30 minutes, and it truly made me feel so much better. What would have taken her probably two hours by herself, only took 2 hours. What an amazing thing to be able to help others. This is what my mission is going to be all about. Helping others. I had such a good feeling after that experience tonight. I'm so grateful to be alive in this day in age, to be an instrument in the hand of God.

Moments In Time

I'm in love with Brittany Elaine Kerr. I've found the girl I want to spend eternity with. She makes me strong and we make each other strong. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing it is. We can and are planning on doing everything together. She makes my life easier and more splendid than I can ever remember. Everything she does is awesome. We spent the most amazing weekend together up where she is going to school. We spent literally almost every minute together. It's crazy how much we hung out. I love her so much and don't want to be with anyone else.

We spent our weekend together, in each others arms, at the park, and at the temple of our God, our loving Heavenly Father. On Saturday I went to the temple with my roommate Bryce and then we went and ate at the crossroads. I ate a Bacon Cheeseburger sandwich. After I went and played basketball. It was fun. I had a great time. I headed over to Brittany's apartment and we had a fun time. We went on a walk to the dollar store and bought a frisbee. We headed to over to park and had a good talk. I can't explain how I feel about this girl.  I don't want to write everything about the weekend here, but I have this feeling Brittany will be reading my journal very soon. 

My Love is Growing

What an amazing weekend. This weekend could have not been any more perfect or beautiful. Brittany Elaine Kerr, my best friend, my love, and my love. I can't tell you in words how my love for you strengthened more than anything. The times we spent together laughing and crying and thinking, tell me and remind me more and more each and everyday, that my love for her is pure. It truly is one of the most amazing things in my life. I want her to know that I am going to marry her. I hope that she knows that I want to make her the happiest girl in the world. More than anything. I can't describe in words my love for her. Oh my, this relationship is going to last forever. On Friday Brittany and I spent the night together. We went and ate at this Hispanic place in Rexburg. It was really nice and then we went and "watched" Happy Gilmore. I love the way that Brittany and I communicate. It's so romantic and amazing. I can't believe how much our love is growing each and every day. It's so beautiful to see. From this day forward I truly want to do everything and put my all into this relationship. I want to talk tocares, my worries, my joys, my love, and everything. Wow I'm so excited for the future. I'm excited to serve my mission, so that I can become a better husband and a better father to my wife and my future family. It's amazing how much we will do for those that we love. I would do anything for Brittany if she asked. Our love grows and as it grows, the happier we become. Brittany, I'm not letting go.

Full Day

Today was a great and amazing day. I was able to get a lot accomplished at Cold Stone. It was nice to be able to talk to Brittany for a little while, but customers kept coming in. I'm tired, Brittanys right, I'll write more tomorrow morning.

Longboarding

Recently I have been doing a lot of longboarding and it's been such a blast. I love it so much. I can't even explain. Today we lost a longboard in the water. It was terrible because it now costs 200 dollars to replace but you know. Life goes on. I'm so excited, for everything in my life. Life is Grand.

Decisions

Why is it that decisions we make in our lives are so hard? Sometimes we feel that if we make the wrong decisions, we can break a heart, or ruin a relationship. It stinks to know, but what if we make the wrong decision. We already know that we will make wrong decisions, but how do we know that we can get back up from it.

Tonight I talked with Brittany about some great and important things. How do I know that after serving my mission for two years I am going to be in love. Will this love last like I want it to? I don't know the answers. Something that has been bugging me lately is my priorities. I have been worrying so much about relationships and things, that I don't even know why. I HAVE A MISSION. It's hard to say but, I shouldn't be stressing myself out. I don't know why I do it either. It's like, Brandon, wake up, you have a mission. I don't know what to do. Brittany is a person I love so much, but what if that love changes? What if I like other girls? Will I break her heart? Will she hate me forever? I mean, we aren't married or anything but what does that make me look like? I've never been the kind of guy, nor ever will be, to be the one to "Fill My Canteen" before my mission. Those I date I care about. They are really nice people and mean a lot to me. I've noticed a lot of different ways people "date" in their lives. Dating exclusively, dating anonymous.  Which is the right way? My mom lately has that she raised us without a handbook. She raised us to be who we were meant to be and how she felt about us. Is that how we should treat dating? Doing our best. You know Brittany and I are having a great relationship, but I'm wondering if we treat it to much like adults and if that is what's causing me stress? Should we be dating steady. I hate to say this but am I old enough to handle this? Was the strength of youth pamphlet made for us? Well duh, of course it was but how do we apply it to our lives. These are a few of the recent decisions I have had to make in my life. Stressful huh?

I Will

I wil be strong
I will go on
I will move on
I will be strong

I'll do what I must
I'll gain all the trust
To make a plan
and follow one man

My saviors knows
Me by the heart
I'll preach his word
and do muy part.

I'm Up

It's 1:40! Time for bed!

I can't get this girl off of my mind. It is now 12:11 and it's like I can't go to sleep without talking to Brittany. Something about her makes me more powerful and able to do things. I want to know what that is. She drives me to become a perfect person. We talk about the moat funniest things ever and just laugh at each others. We're growing and I love it.

Today I got a lot of things accomplished at cold stone. I had to put the order away and it took a long time. I got all of that accomplished though. I also made all of the ice cream. Tomorrow I have to finish the rest of all the cakes for the weekend so I can hang out with Brittany. I'm so excited for her to come down. It will be nice to see her and just talk for hours and hours. Theres no one I like to talk with as much as Brittany. We have such a fun time talking and laughing and everything that we do is super fine. Life is grand, life is great.

I just felt amazing after thinking about, the movie goal and the movie the pursuit of happiness.

A Time for Us

There will be a time when we can all truly have what we want and keep it, if we are doing what's right. This morning was exciting. I was able to wake up and go on a run. I had fun, running 2 miles and then I came home. I cut my hair so now it is nice and short. After I ate eggs in a basket. We headed of to Cold Stone, and I sat in the lobby reading my scriptures. It was nice seeing the sun coming out at 7:21 because it helped my scripture study. It was a beautiful day today also. You know what though I can't stop not talking about something.

Brittany Elaine Kerr

This woman makes my life so easy and wonderful. She truly makes my world turn round. Every minute, every second I get closer to her, knowing that our love is growing in a way I have never seen before. We teach each other, help each other grow, and learn together. You know my mom always told me to marry up and I always took that for granted. I think I found that someone that I would love to marry because they have such a positive influence on me. Whoa, it's just a great time to be alive.

Tonight at singles ward we played 9 square and I was able to meet some new people. I met Heath, Megan, Jenny, Connor, and an old friend of mine, Tony. He just got back from his mission in Canada. It was so much fun and they loved the laughter and fun that I brought to the ward. I was super excited. We finished up and Jenny, Tony, Connor and I went to Cold Stone and got Ice Cream. That was my day, thinking of all the wonderful things and people Heavenly Father has blessed me with in my life.

One On One

Haha this title, has so much meaning to me. How important is it to be able to have conversations with those you love most about what is most important. It's nice to be able to communicate and show people the things that you love and the way that you are. My dad this week showed us this funny video about Homemade Breast Implants. Basically I thought it was the funniest thing in the whole entire world.

It seriously is one of the funniest stand up comedies that I have ever seen. 

You know, I've been able to do a lot of thinking lately. It's been really amazing week this past week. It was my last week of preparation for the future ahead. I'm prepared to do what I need to do. I basically planned everything out. At first my list looked like this of goals I wanted to accomplish.

Now though I have figured out what my main goals are, thanks to my amazing friend and lover Brittany who has made my life happier day by day, just by teaching me how to be a better person. She truly inspires me to get things done. She is so beautiful and an amazing and wonderful person. I'm truly blessed to have her in my life. I want to get a lot of things accomplished before my mission and she has helped me in so many ways to get those things done.

Mount Timpanogos Temple

On Tuesday night I was able to go to the most sacred spot on the earth today- the temple. I can't even begin to describe what an amazing experience that was for me. I learned so much and was able to be closer to my Father in Heaven. I can't tell you what an amazing feeling is there, and it's so sweet! You know it's nice to know that in the temple we can have one on one time with our Father in Heaven. I want to become closer to him and learn the things that he wants to teach me, day by day. I have seen his hand in my life, but I want to see it everyday. Everywhere I walk, where I talk, and where I stand. I truly am blessed to be able to be born into a home with parents who truly, beyond a doubt, love the Lord. My family is such a great example to me. They teach me how to do whats right and where to be and how to do things. I'm so grateful that my Father in Heaven knows what I need. I want to be able to receive everything I need so that I can give all of it back to my Father in Heaven. This is who I am. I am a Child of God. He loves me and I love him. I will always stand as a witness of God at all times and in all things and at all places. 

Early Bird

Isn't it nice to be able to wake up early. I love it! I can get stuff accomplished and I can earn money. This morning I applied for a job at Paradise Bakery. I'm hoping I receive the job because I will be able to wake up at 5 each morning and run to work. Today I am planning on buying a pair of Nike IPod shoes for running.

There's some things that I want to get done in my life before I leave on my mission such as, run a marathon. I plan on running to coldstone every morning and then running home. The whole distance is 7 miles so I would be running 14 miles a day! I think that would totally be worth it. I'm stoked. I recently have started playing basketball a lot more so that I can work out. I got a brand new pair of Nike shoes also. They are black and blue! I think they are so sick. So that much is new in my life. From here on out until my mission I'm plan it on saving every penny for me and a special someone. I'm excited to see what the future has in store and the blessings that it will bring if I am doing what is right. I'm so excited to be able to serve my mission in the Caribbean. I want to be all that I can be. I just want to do what's right all the time.

Chopsticks

Brittany and I ate Panda Express in the park in the canyon. We had some amazing fortune cookies.

Seniors

While at work today, quite a few older people came in and got ice cream. This is what the first few looked like.

Not so happy. They were just depressed about life, like they were going nowhere.

This is what I want to be like when I'm older. I want to be able to smile and bring laughter to my grandkids and family. I want to be alive, full of life, and full of joy. Isn't that all that this life is about. Finding true joy through the gospel. Why shouldn't we be happy 24/7. Thats what I'm striving to do.

My Call For 2 Years

Oh my goodness what an amazing day it was yesterday. Yesterday around 7:20 I opened my mission call! I was so excited all day. On Wednesday April 13 at 11:00 at night I went to the mail box and found my mission call. I had to wait 4 days to open it. It was a such a pain to wait that long but in the end it was so worth it. I can't even begin to tell you how excited I was. Family and friends were gathered around on Sunday night to celebrate. We had dinner with a few of our close friends and then after we were able to have more people come over to have dessert and food. I am so excited to leave. I have been called to the:

WEST INDIES MISSION

I am super excited to be able to serve and be called to this mission. I feel that this is where I am meant to go and it's where the Lord wants me to be.

Yesterday after I opened my mission call I was able to see my friends and family in tears and happiness. I have a lot of people looking up to me and I need to make sure that I am always worthy so that I can be their example that they need. A lot of people are counting and praying for me. I know that this is my calling in life. Regan Hansen, one of my best friends yesterday, broke down. I had never seen Regan so happy and yet at the same time so grateful. He thanked me for being a great example. I'm so grateful for that memory. I need to do what's right at all times and all things and all places. My fellow brethren are looking up to me. I can't tell you how important of a moment that was to me. It will forever being a memory I cherish in my life.

I am to report to the MTC on August 17, 2011. I am very excited. I want those that look up to me to know that all I want to do is what is right. I can't even begin to describe to tell you how excited I am. I spent the rest of the evening with Brittany. I look up to her a lot. She is an amazing and beautiful example in my life. She teaches me to be a better me and makes me seem needed. I love her so much. If I could tell her one thing right now it would be how much I want to see her smile for eternity. I am grateful that I have a love for Brittany that will last. No matter what. I'm very excited and blessed to have her in my life.

Now as I prepare to serve my mission I will become what the lord needs me to be. I will serve him at all times, and in all things, and all places. I love my God. I love my Family. I love my Friends. But Most of All I Love my Savior, My Redeemer, My Brother,

JESUS CHRIST

It's leftover Chinese from yesterday but it's a blast. I'm super excited to go longboarding today with Braden, Regan, Dezmon and Brittany. It should be a blast. Until then I have to get back to work.

Funny Times

Basically last night was a beautiful time to spend with my best friend. We had so much that we did, as we ran around classic skating and even the special moments when my iPod started playing "There is beauty all around"! Brittany and I laughed together so many times last night. It was a blast being together having fun. Today I am a work reflecting on last night. It hasn't been that busy but I got up at 10:30 and got everything finished before the store opened at 11:00. I moves so fast this morning. At 5:00 today we are planning on going long boarding down Provo canyon. I'm super excited and can't wait. This is my lunch that I am eating today.

The more we take, the less we become.

Thinking has been on my mind for a while. I work everyday Monday thru Friday by myself and so I am able to do a lot of thinking and writing. My mission is ahead of me in the next two months. I've been thinking a lot if I am ready. I am ready. Ready to give my life to the lord. I will be leaving people behind that I love but this calling that I have in my life will make me grow closer to them. I know it more than anything in the world. The title of this post was worded from one of my best friends, Quincy Murphy. Thanks so much for daily putting quotes on your life to help put together mine. It means so much to me. I just want to write and write and learn to write more and more each and everyday. One of my favorite quotes is a goal not written down is merely a wish. It's so true and if we don't write it down it will be lost in the depths of the great minds we have as children of God.

My Friend I Love

You Walked Lightly

You walked lightly into my life captivating and lovely to my mind at first I didn't care who you were now I don't know who I am without you you kissed me I felt my world change your held me I heard my hear awaken you loved me You walked lightly into my life now my heart knows who you are and with every breath and every step I take down lonely roads your hands is my staff your voice is my guide your strength is my shelter your passion is my awakening you walked lightly into my life and all my pain you took as your own and all my fears you cast out into the sea all my doubt lost in your eyes you walked into my life and no matter if you choose to stay or go my life is forever changed just because you loved me for a moment in time This is for you. I can't describe how much it means to be loved in your lifetime. Brittany and I spent the night together after a long day of work at ColdStone. Brittany was able to go shopping while I was at work. She got a new brown dress and a really bright skirt with a purple shirt. Its was darling, I love it. This love grows more and more day by day, and the nice thing is that I know it means something.

I want to do so much in my life right now. Whoa I'm super excited. I'm getting ready and preparing for my mission. It's going to be an exciting and amazing thing in my life to find out who and what I am to be. My calling and everything. Very soon now I will be going to the temple to receive my endowments. I am so excited. Last night I spent time with my family and my best friend, we played taboo and scrabble. After we went on a drive. It was nice being able to talk about anything and everything. It's so nice, but more than anything I'm excited for my mission right now.

Family

One of the most important things in our life is family. Family is what this earth life is about. Family is forever. Today my family and I went on a lunch outing to the Pizza Factory and the breadsticks were delicious. I has three of them. It was the most amazing place to eat and sit and talk. After we went and watched the movie Hanna. It was a really good movie that my parents didn't like, but it was pretty good I thought. The beginning of the movie was really good, and at the end of the movie it got kind of boring. Besides that the movie was really good. The weather in Utah is terrible right now though. There is tons of snow everywhere still and then it just turns to rain. My dad has been driving Ike crazy the last little bit, and has been complaining about other drivers. I sure hope that I will be able to write in my blog tomorrow! If I'm alive.

The Best Is Yet To Come

Isn’t it neat when you have that special someone that you can call your own? Brittany Kerr, I can’t describe in words how much you mean to me. On Tuesday night Brittany and I rendezvoused in the gardens, after I got my interview for my mission papers. They are all in now and it has taken several weeks but now I should get my call in the next few weeks! I’m super excited. I have been ready to serve my mission for so long. Okay so here are the things that are on my mind.

1. Mission- the number one thing on my mind that I am preparing for. I’ve been working hard on trying to read my scriptures everyday and its coming along pretty well.

2. Brittany Kerr- what a wonderful blessing in my life to have someone that loves me so much. I care about her each and everyday. When we were at the gardens we dance to the song Free Fall by the Dream and I can’t describe the feelings that I felt that night. I love this person.

3. Parkour- who doesn’t love it? Parkour is an amazing thing to watch and people can be so good at it. It’s crazy to think that people can jump across bridges and buildings and still live to tell the tale. I’m going to learn.

4. Website- I’m working on a website that I want to make for my future family. It’s going to have family home evening links and breakfast, lunch, and dinner links also. Tons of Hymns and just amazing stuff. I’m so excited to finish and be able to work on this website. It’s going to be an amazing thing.

Along with many other things I also want to write in this blog everyday and keep it updated. My life about how to change the world with love, is going to happen. I can feel it in my bones.

Secret Codes

Whoa how amazing is life when you are living right! It's such a blessing to be loved and to know that you can love. My life is such a blast right now. There's this person named Brittany Kerr who makes my life go round and round. We hang out on weekends and study by the week. I mean it's like she's my greatest friend ever. I can't even begin to describe how amazing it is being able to hang out. This past weekend, Brittany and I, after having 15 other people bail out, went to the Holi Festival of Colors

It was such a blast being able to be with here all weekend. We watched the movie takers the previous night. I worked Saturday night, while Brittany went to the Young Women's Broadcast saturday night. It was so much fun seeing her so happy when she got done talking to my mom and Sister Weller about the night's experience. She learned a lot about me and I am not sure whether that is a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe at some point I'll find out but for now that's fine with me. I'm happy and that's all that matters. My plan is to write in my Blog day by day from now on. This is my goal, written down.

Washington

This weekend I took a trip with Brittany to her home town of Tricities Washington. It was a relief from the world. I took refuge in their humble abode. We had a great time being together and hanging out. I couldn't even begin to describe to you how much fun it was. We had a blast being together. I love her family, they are amazing people

We are blinded by our passions in our every day lives. We must learn to bridle our passions. If we can't learn to control our thoughts and our emotions then we will be blind in this life. Life is a lot better to go through when you are not blind and you can see the road ahead. I believe that we must be able to let go of things no matter how hard it is to. That's why I write. To be able to make goals and bridle our passions we must write them down. A goal is not a goal until it is written down. I believe that with all my heart. It's now in my life that I have to go through with those decisions and understand that it's for the best even if it causes grief and pain. Our lord, Christ went through all the pain we had and we must realize that we are not alone.

Promise

What's in a promise? Is it something that you can keep? Can it be kept forever?

I have come to a big decision in my life of what I know to be right and what I want to be right. I want to live the gospel of Jesus Christ to it's fullest. I am a Son of God.

Life is a river, a river that sometimes we can't handle at times, but we know we can get through. I have never and don't ever want to hurt anyone or break anyones heart. Life isn't easy for me at all. I've made plans and have ideas that I want to live up to. I've been able to stand up after all of my choices that I've made. Today, more than ever, I must learn to stand up. It seems nearly impossible but I know what I must do. More than ever I know what it means to truly love someone. Sometimes, I feel, in life we have to push the things that we hold most dear away. No matter how hard it seems, the Savior is there to re-assure me that what I am doing is right, even though it seems nearly impossible. I'm sorry for any heartache I've caused to anyone in the world and especially to someone who is so important in my life right now. I'm learning to be strong by the decisions I am making and though that trust can't be there, it can still be built up again. Life is a journey. We meet amazing and incredible people. They go in and out of our lives in instances, almost like a blink of an eye. We must understand that in the end, all we hope for more than anything is they will return. I speak in riddles a lot but I hope that I can explain myself the best that I can. If that special someone is out there reading this I hope they know something. No matter how hard I push you away, I still care and love you so much. That's all I can say for myself. I'm preparing to serve a mission. I'm ready to be the lords for two years and serve him with all my mind, might, and soul.

What's important to you is important to the lord

Out of Love-

Are criticizing and critiquing the same thing? How could they be.
To criticize means to break down, or tear apart. To critique means to build up by improving. Basically critiquing is out of love and criticizing is not.

Trusting in One Another

It takes a lifetime to build, and a moment to lose. I see the value of trust in my daily life. It determines who we are, and what we do. It's simple to say you trust someone, but to truly trust someone can take years. I love being able to talk to the one I love and know that we both are living to have a better life. That's the whole purpose of coming to this earth. To learn how to be better. 

There's different points in your life you have to go through. It seems like a lot right now, to me, to think about. There's good, better, and best. Let me describe the ways I see it in my life right now.

1. Good

There's plenty of my friend out there living this life. The gospel is important and they know that. They don't believe that they have to follow it though. They can find other ways and everything will work out. Everything's all good. It seems like people really can be satisfied with good but to me, it's a word that tells people that you aren't trying. You've given up and your fine with what you have. There's nothing bad about this, but there's all better.

2. Better

I believe this is the point that I am at in my life. I'm doing better at things and I'm learning day by day. I want change and want to learn and grow more. It's crazy how much we learn day by day if we really seek for it. It teaches us about ourselves and our true potential. I'm happy to be alive. Happy to be thinking about the future. I've never been happier in my life.

3. Best

I do not only hope, but I know that I will be here one day. It's the thing that I want to be able to say everyday. I'm doing my best. I'm doing everything I can. Being the best doesn't mean being puffed up in pride or doing things for your own personal gain. It's being the best you. Not only for yourself, but for everyone around you. It's what makes you the happiest and makes everyone around you happy. 

Brittany Kerr

You are the world to me. You make my life a bliss. I'm glad that we can be honest and that everything I say to you is with my heart. I mean every word and every deed that I do. You know what, I'm totally all for everything we say. I want to be with you, growing and learning, in the gospel. Making choices in life that will bring us closer to God. I want us both to be happy, happy together. Being the Best that We can BE!

Valentines Weekend

                                                           “For God so loVed the world,

                                                                   That He gAve

                                                                         His onLy

                                                                        BegottEn

                                                                               SoN

                                                                                   That whosoever

                                                                   Believeth In Him

                                                                       Should Not perish,

                                                                    But have Everlasting life.”

                                                                                                         - John 3:16

This Valentines day weekend was more than amazing. It was a wonderful weekend filled with smiles, and whispers, and food. I took Brittany Kerr to my parents home in Utah. We left Friday afternoon, and headed straight down. We spent that friday night talking and laughing and pushing a car along the freeway at 2 in the morning. The next day we spent meeting new people and getting to know each other even more. More than anything I just love being with Brittany. She inspires me to be a  better person and makes life better than it is. I woke up this morning at 5o'clock and just smiled. On Saturday night we went out and ate at Rodizio Grill.

It was well worth it and I had a blast. That night before we went to the dance, we went to a park. The park where I would spend time dancing and laughing and being with her for over an hour. I felt something that night that I never felt before. I can't describe it in words and I don't think I ever will be able to. All I know is that the night meant something special to me. Sunday we spent at church and talking about  the future. I loved talking about it, and the more we do the more of a reality I can see, and I want to make it work. Even better, I'm going to make it work. I have a mission in life. I'm going to fulfill it and return to our father in heaven. I am a child of our Father in Heaven, and I will be married for all time and eternity. I want peace. I care about someone. I want her to know that more than anything.

Happy Valentines Day Brittany

Content? Yes. Happy? Always. Peaceful? Definitely. Life has been great the last few weeks and it gets better and better. On Jan 21, I met Brittany Kerr, who is now my girlfriend. We laugh, communicate, talk, and understand each other. I love being with her. Even if we are just sitting on a couch holding hands. I love knowing that both of us are happy together. We aren't just content. We are so happy to be together. When I see her smile, it makes my day brighter and happier. I can't describe how I feel in life right now. Excited, happy, joy, none of these words can describe it. Brittany is from Washington. She has two younger sisters. Her parents seem to approve of me. I hope they do. I'm so excited for this weekend because we are going to meet my parents. This should be exciting!

Brittany

A new person in my life make the world a better place.

You Can't Change People

You can't change people. You can't make decisions for them. This idea stuck me today. I think I am learning a lot about my life and things I will do, since my mission is coming up. I am getting ready to start my papers. I know we are given challenges in life. It's just not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I have to see my friends and family and acquaintances suffer with choices they make. I think seeing them struggle in their life, is teaching me to be a better father. I love these people, and I can't make their choices for them. This is how it is going to be in the case of my own subordinates. I have to learn now, so that I can be ready. This is why the church stresses so much to be yourself at all times. You can't teach or be an example, if you periodically change. It just won't happen. I know this is true with all my heart. To influence people you have to be influenced by God. Today's Martin Luther King day. Become your own influencer. Be yourself; don't change for others. Let them learn to love you as you are--but even better, know you love yourself as a person--and then you will be the change you wish to see in the world.

Follow the greatest influence.

All You Need Is Love

Communication

I've noticed in my life that I like to exaggerate.

 I exaggerate stories to make myself look like a better person. 

We need to learn to be our one true self. 

People will respect the person who respects himself. 

I thought I would share this poem from my readings in class.

When you get what you want in your struggle for self, 

And the world makes you king for a day;

  Then go to your mirror and look at yourself;

And see what that guy has to say. 

For it isn’t your father or husband or wife,

Whose judgment upon you must pass; 

The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life,

Is the guy staring back from the glass. 

He’s the man you must please, never mind all the rest,

For he’s with you right up to the end; 

And you’ve passed your most difficult dangerous test,

When the man in the glass is your friend. 

You may be like little Jack Horner and “chisel” a plum,

And think you’re a wonderful guy; 

But the man in the glass thinks you’re only a bum,

If you can’t look him straight in the eye. 

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,

And can get pats on the back as you pass; 

But your final reward will be heartache and tears;

If you’ve cheated the man in the glass.

Author Unknown

Find your true self. The person that everyone will love.

Relationships

Relationships. Whoa, what a fun and exciting thing to talk about. It's so controversial. You know what I have decided; I don't have an opinion on relationships. It's to complicated to think about and decide which side you're on. It's funny how many times we, as humans, have talks and fights about what is wrong and what is right when it comes to dating relationships. We need to all stop and think for a moment... 

When I was in junior high, kissing was a very special thing, so I never really kissed girls. High school came along and I was in the same boat. Now, I have a friend who was in the same situation in junior high. When he arrived in high school, he had totally changed his views. He made out all the time and I just didn't understand what happened. The weird thing was he even liked the girls and wasn't just using them. My point I am trying to get at is don't judge people. Some people kiss more people than others in their life, it's just human. We need to stop judging them for that. It's their choice. 

Now I'm not saying it's okay to be a player and go out the next night or week and make out. I just want people to know that a kiss is special. A kiss can be very powerful. Seriously, think about it. When your with someone that you love, you have to take a risk, to find out if they feel the same way about you. You never know, until you try. I know some people take it casually, as you know. I don't blame or dislike those that take kissing casually, of course everyone likes it, we're human. 

It has something to do with hormones or whatever you want to call it. I believe that a kiss is something special. It's a heartfelt emotion about how you feel towards someone very special. You're expressing your feelings about them. Everyone should know that. It's a simple fact of what happens in life and relationships. I'm not sure why I blog about this kind of stuff, but I find it interesting.

 Shaylea, was the last girl I kissed. I truly do have a love for her. I don't know why, but she gives me hope. Hope to be a part of something bigger. I know I say some of the strangest things, but I truly love the people in my life.